ugh

Of the 4, so far none have fertilized. One appeared to be halfway there when they were looking, but the rest showed no signs. The nurse tried to tell me that sometimes the others will catch up, but I think she was just blowing smoke up my ass. Nothing Dr. Google has to say backs her up on this.

I have to wait until Friday now to know more because they don't like them going in and out of their warm place too much. While this makes sense to the .0001% of me that's science-minded, the other 99.999% of me can't even begin to think about waiting another two days to know more.

Last night I was lying awake, unable to fall back to sleep and the only thing that comforted me was knowing that W's swimmers and my eggs were meeting up and partying together through the night. I'm not sure how I'll sleep tonight.