No, the booze in the back is not part of my protocol. I wish!! I actually didn't even notice it was there until after I took the picture and I gave a millisecond's thought to clearing it out and retaking the shot, but realized that this was not exactly a Glamour Shot. (Weird. Spellcheck wants me to say "glamor" but it just looks better to me with the u. International and fancy and whatnot. Besides, what the hell does spellcheck know? It doesn't even know the word spellcheck!)
Anyway, here are my drugs in all their glory. Now if AF would just show up (not for another week at least) we can get this party started!
Am I nuts to keep feeling so giddy about all this? I know in the back of my mind that since this is my first IVF, it could end up being more diagnostic than impregnating, so my enthusiasm could be a bit naive. It will be interesting to actually get a look at my eggs (or at least have someone trained in egg-looking look at them through a powerful microscope) but I really hope there's nothing out of the ordinary to see. I just want to be ordinary.
I know it's too late for ordinary-ordinary, like getting knocked up by knockin' boots, but can I make a plea for IVF-ordinary? I'm worried that this enthusiasm I'm feeling has an expiration date. Like the end of next month's 2ww.
I do have a bit of 'insurance." Oh, not health insurance... my crappy nonprofit PPO doesn't cover shit, but we bought ourselves a little insurance with the ole' "Option 2 plan" which includes:
- IVF #1
- Cryopreservation of whatever lil guys aren't transferred but make it that far
- All the FET's that can possibly come from the yield above for 12 months
- Another fresh IVF cycle
But I want it to be a colossal waste of money and for the first cycle to work. Much to W's dismay, I've never been all that thrifty and now more than ever getting my money's worth is so not important. A baby will do nicely. (And really, would be considered more than "my money's worth")
I've been enjoying getting to know a few of you out there and totally appreciate all the love! I'm looking forward to checking in on everyone and to turning to you for support over the next little while. Thanks!