Friday, May 18, 2007


My ET went well this morning. Or I guess I should say, "My ET happened this morning." I've got the 2ww to handle before I'll know how well it went.

I'm kind of in a state of shock because I ended up transferring 3, which is something I never thought I'd do, especially since I thought only two had fertilized. They gave us the news about the extra when we arrived this morning.

I'm definitely not down with multiples, especially of the high-order variety, but the math won out. My RE and W both thought 3 was the way to go, especially since the 3rd wasn't freeze-worthy. (Why would it be transfer-worthy, then?) Also, my RE said that I have to be treated like an older woman because of my high FSH. I was steadfast in my view that 2 was best, but when asked, "What if it doesn't work? Won't we regret not tossing in that 3rd one?" I realized that I would absolutely regret it, so here I am.

I just hate the idea of not rooting for them all to succeed. I guess my kid(s) first lesson will be that there IS an I in team. I really need to turn my brain around and be positive. It's so hard thought. I feel like I've made a mistake and there's no going back now.

First beta - May 29th


stickybun07 said...

Think of it this way--if it works, no matter what you'll just be so overwhelmed and regrets. :-)

will be thinking of you this 2ww...wishing you a very happy ending and sending lots of hope and good thoughts!

Carrie said...

You've not made a mistake. You made the right decision at the time. Take some comfort from thinking that if you'd only transferred two, you'd be feeling exactly the same right now, second guessing yourself.

I hope this will be a speedy, peaceful 2WW....and of course have a lovely conclusion.

LJ said...

You can only make a decision with what you know at the moment. You came to a conclusion that will give you the best shot at holding a baby this round.

I'll be here watching and waiting with you.

Ms. Planner said...

Hi E - Thanks to your earlier post, I have been singing "Three it's the Magic Number" in my head for most of the week. HUUUGE thank you for that :)

Sounds like your decision was based on a natural maternal instinct: protect that embie. There is no need to feel like you made a mistake using that logic. Go easy on yourself sister. We'll be with you (and everyone else on board) during the 2ww.

xoxo, Ms. Planner

Marie-Baguette said...

if that can make you feel better, I transferred 2 and ended up with quads (one split into 3 -- yeah, freaky!). All sorts of outcomes are possible so don't stress out... Just focus on the good thing: you had 3 embryos who fertilized nicely... That's great!

Nearlydawn said...

You will be glad of the 3rd when you get that BFP, because you will always know that you might have saved the little one that could!

My RE and I discussed this very scenario, where one embie is just not gonna make it to day 5, and wouldn't be a good choice for freezing, but could certainly make a baby. He said in that case we MIGHT want to put back 3 instead of 2. Just my RE's 2 cents for comparison! :)

Reproductive Jeans said...

Yay for transfer--now its into the 2ww...will check in on you! Take it easy (as possible!)

Anonymous said...

Wow three! Good luck Erin, I hope they all take at the least!